Approach an adult you trust and with whom you are close. It may be a family member, friend, community leader, teacher, etc.
Tell them what you are thinking of, or at least how you are feeling. Let them know you are struggling and at a loss.
Be prepared for their reaction. They will want to help but may be startled or react emotionally. Let them know you want to work things out but can’t do it alone.
Ask them to help you find additional support in person, online or on the phone.